I travel too much.

Or, money ain’t time if all you got is money. (especially if you have as little money as I do. =)

Don’t get me wrong. It’s great seeing so much of this country, and this planet. But the fact that I have three free southwest flights coming to me, and no idea what I’ll spend them on is a little disconcerting. Yay for frequent flyer credit cards?

Continual Exit

I leave things alot. Too much, in fact.

I leave cities. I leave friends. I leave classes. I leave jobs. I leave apartments. When it comes time to fish or cut bait, I will reliably cut bait. It’s amazing that I’ve made it as far as I have considering. I maintain a belief, or perhaps an illusion of belief, that the perfect career/apartment/city/social network/lover/what-have-you is out there somewhere.

Some things I’ll have to grow into. That’s not to say that there aren’t better and worse options from the above. But committing time to something is more important than finding the perfect (or, more accurately, “potentially perfect”) one. Chewing my fingernails trying to figure out if I got the right one means my paradigm needs some work. But I can do the work. And I will.

Save the cheerleader, save the world

I admit it. Heroes has me by the nads. In my teens I occassionaly watched soap operas, mostly because the suspense drew me back in. I have to thank advertising for turning me off of tv. I am probably happier without. Sure, the daily show rocks, and I loved babylon 5, but tv=bad for you.

Heroes is very well done. The acting is good, the story believable, compelling, and interesting.

There’s probably something about being a social reject in one’s youth that leads to a love of comic books, fantasy, etc, etc. I’m not quite sure why these genres are so compelling to me, but they are.

For those of you who aren’t familiar with Heroes, it’s a nbc tv series. People with strange abilities from “around the world” (ie, almost all from america. One indian and two japanese people not withstanding). “Normal” people. Who get an array of abilities, many of which are remarkably reminiscent of x-men, for the most part. But there’s no professor X. This is a darker, more sinister world. And more mysterious. Sorta x-files meets x-men. But more intimately grounded in real life. It’s good watching, I much recommend it.

Not enough time

So I want to

  • do a daily workout (on day 3, aerobic only.)
  • eat fresh fruit and vegetables (it’s good to have dreams)
  • make friends with new chicago people (note this does not mean sleep with them)
  • travel to interesting new places (like my recent trip to Seattle and Denver).
  • do board games
  • pursue my environmental interests
  • level up my WoW characters to keep pace with friends
  • read

Did I mention that I have a 8.75 hour work day, and a 1.75 hour roundtrip commute? Assuming 8 hours of sleep (why not assume a magical genie to grant wishes), that leaves 5.25 hours per day for all the above, as well as breakfast, dinner, and routine maintenance.

not. enough. time.

breaking news: catholics screwed up about homos

A few bishops voiced concern Monday that the guidelines, on which a final vote is expected Tuesday, would not help them reach gay Catholics. Bishop J. Kevin Boland of Savannah, Ga., said the distinction between calling homosexuality a disordered inclination and insisting that gay people are not disordered would be lost on gay men and lesbians.

β€œI think that is quite reasonable for the heterosexual, but for the person with the inclination it will be very hard to accept,” Bishop Boland told the conference. β€œTo apply it pastorally can be quite difficult.”

It can be quite difficult because we’re not all idiots or filled with self-loathing. That particular absess took a long time to drain, and I don’t particularly feel the need to refill it. Assholes.

Dispossessed

There’s a little beautiful irony to the fact that as I was landing at SLC, and finishing up The Dispossesed, I left my winter coat on the plane. At least I didn’t lose another of ‘s loaner books. When Ellen loaned it to me, I didn’t recognize it, but this was the second time I had started to read it. It’s not an action oriented novel, and it has alot of obscure philosophizing in it. But it definitly picks up at the end. Maybe I’ll read more LeGuin… =)