So, a few years ago, I met a guy online. Kinda cute, though not in your typical sort of way. Totally fell for him. Then he went back to his ex wife, with whom he had had a kid. Fast forward a couple of years. I leave pittsburgh, and come back to find that he’s still interested in guys (surprise, surprise), has had a serious boyfriend, and is now hung up on him, as well as his ex wife.
And he runs completely hot & cold on me. Occassional, very very hot running, with lengthy disappearances. Very very confusing.
Run across him online again. Made plans to see him next week. My brain is telling me that I’m cruising for an emotional bruising, but I find this guy so physically and emotionally appealing it’s kinda scary.
There’s something deeply ironic in pacifistic, non-conformist, anti-establishment me falling for a cop.
But, still, after talking with him, and expressing, more clearly than I ever have before, my attraction to him, and having a reciprocation of that, I feel that it’s all okay. (Nevermind that anything between us has a guaranteed, very small, maximum duration built in, he’s emotionally tied to pittsburgh, and I’m bound by wanderlust)
Experience tells me it’s about today. Why I always fall for the ones that think they are straight or bi is way beyond my comprehension, yet I look back with a smile on my face. How sweet it was and they are.
> Why I always fall for the ones that think they
> are straight or bi is way beyond my comprehension
Many people actually are bisexual, although I will grant that a lot of gay people claim to be bisexual as a transitional step to coming out. There’s nothing wrong with being bi.
Never said there was:)
Oh, you took that wrong. There is absolutely nothing wrong with anyones sexual preference, I was just commenting on the fact that I tend to fall in love with straight and bi guys a hell of lot more than I find myself with a gay partner. Really the only difference between bi and gay is that the guys cheat with girls instead of another guy. LOL. And I probably do have a small issue within myself about the fact that the best lovers I ever had were bi. But I’m sure that has a lot to do with the fact that they are more sexually explorative than most straights. I only speak from personal experience here, not for any stats compiled.
Well the cop thing is really a bitch…I knew this cop in Atlanta taht I thought was hot. But once I found out he was a cop, I just backed off. I think Firemen would be a good replacement. 🙂 Good luck!
Find someone else
Find someone else.
Find someone else.
Find someone else.
Find someone else.
You don’t need that roller coaster.
Find someone else.
Pride is coming. 🙂
Re: Find someone else
I have to agree. There are enough problems in interpersonal relationships without taking that level of crap on.
Pride is over =)
In pittsburgh, it’s over (it was raining during the parade, nobody was there). I’ll be in chicago during their pride, but only for the weekend, and I’ll be getting into san fran after pride. Thank heavens.
I am so tremendously uncomfortable in crowds. Pride has never worked as a vehicle for meeting people for me.
Re: Find someone else
But as for your overall point, it is well taken 😉