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Shower Games

So, yeah, I check out guys in the shower. And I’ve been known to do the flirting eye contact, smile routine as well, from time to time. I often question whether I’m being rude. Particularly when I try to initiate eye contact/smile, and it gets ignored, or a frown in response.

Yesterday, after lifting, the showers were a minor zoo. Usually there’s maybe 4 guys in there at once, this time there were more like 8 (with 20-25 shower heads). So, shower, sauna, some out of shape, wrinkly, white-haired guy “scratching” himself alot in the sauna, while looking at me. I suppose that’s kind of flattering, but this sauna is fairly crowded, this isn’t steamworks, and furthermore, it’s not that much farther/more expensive to go to steamworks instead. Not the right place for it*, and not someone I’d want to do anything with really, though I have no real objection to him doing whatever he wants with himself.

*=(I regard surreptitious masturbation in a not-specifically-queer gym (in fact, in this case, parents-and-kids-oriented gym) as a minor rudeness, while openly masturbating in the sauna of a not-specifically-queer gym would be really rude, almost certainly get him disapproving reactions, and probably get him tossed out if he continued it, like the way smoking ought to be, thank you CA)

Out to the shower. Scratchy guy relocates to the showerhead immediately adjacent to me. (note that currently makes 6 people to 20+ showerheads). Another guy comes out, starts a shower two heads down from me the other way, then moves to the one adjacent to me. A third guy showering half the room away, relocates to the shower directly across from mine. All of them (not in unison) start soaping up their dicks. One of them (across from me) is marginally attractive. Doing my best not to stare, and not to give any encouragement. Unfortunately one part of my anatomy is not cooperating. This is inspiring claustrophobia. Wrap towel around me, head to steam room. 4 seconds behind me are my adoring fans. Fortunately the steam room is less crowded, and they sit farther away.

Eventually they stop following me, my muscles are less tight/sore, I rinse off. Hey, pretty cute guy, eye contact, smile, reciprocation.

While I’m waiting for Ro out front to take me to board gaming, cute guy introduces himself and we exchange contact info.

Mmmmmm, ettiquette ambiguities, mmmmm.

silly websites

So, there’s this website which allows you to administer a toy nation. It gives you issues periodically which you address my multiple choice legislation, and the character of your nation thus emerges. I’m rather amused with the way mine is turning out thus far. If this kind of wacky silliness amuses, I encourage you to sign up. www.nationstates.net

mine, in particular, is

http://www.nationstates.net/cgi-bin/index.cgi/target=display_nation/nation=scubert

another casualty

Is it wisdom or simply apathy when someone you have no interest in getting to know denounces you via email for his interpretation of your expression of disinterest, and you just let it slide?

This is not the part of CA I was hoping to adopt. Though, in truth, I’m happier with this than the agonizing over similar situations I did in less ‘target rich’ environments. I’d feel a little slimy for that, but I guess I just really don’t care.

Less with the self hating, more with the vaguely sad, maybe it is a good thing over all. I feel sorry for the kid, but pity is a terrible foundation for a friendship, let alone a relationship. I hope he finds happiness in his way, and far away from me.

Direct from the net dating really sucks. Even the cool guys I’ve met that way have mostly had serious complications (too damn busy, oh-did-I-forget-to-mention-my-wife/partner, not-so-much-out-of-the-closet, etc). How to meet more people in environments I feel comfortable in? Or at least, what environments can I meet people I’d like, and not feel horribly out of place in?

Point to ponder.

litany of friends

So, I’ve been in a bit of a funk. And I was feeling especially out of tune with my social circles here. Hungry for harmony. Thirsty probably more like it, you can go longer without food. Anyway, I started wondering what was missing, so I started thinking about old friends. And I decided to make a list of friends and what I appreciated about them. I was up to more than 50 friends, spanning from my late years in high school to my second year at cmu, when the sun rose, I was in a good mood, and I decided to shelve the project a) before I got bored with it and b) for the next time I was in a nobody-loves-me mood.

It’s a good thing to have that kind of perspective.