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My week and weekend has been much less adventurous. Gym stuff, groceries, installing freebsd (which happened far more smoothly this time than in any prior experience), clinic. Ro left for Albuquerque early yesterday. This morning I’m doing some atypical stuff, doing laundry, and in the wait times, I’m doing dishes, messing with my window manager (yay pwm), and what not. Definitely doing the gym and getting some work in today. Probably going to head down to south bay to hang out with
Tomorrow is my first day of my first post-secondary class anywhere other than cmu, and the probable arrival date for my new-to-me laptop.
Things have been feeling very blase to me lately. Many times in my life, the ones I’ve enjoyed most, have been experientially rich, vivid, and complex. Time is flying in CA, but like flying in a jet, the scenery has quickly become monotonous. Not sure how I’m going to ‘touch down’, but the time is coming.
Any thoughts on how your metamorphasis will manifest itself? A new geographic location? New job? New friends?
Of what you listed, new job seems most likely, though I have no idea where I would find it, but really not what you listed. I’m not forseeing major changes of that sort in my life.
There’s this bit from the last episode of ‘6 feet under’ that I watched. David, the religious gay mortician, is talking with his priest about his relationship with his boyfriend, and how that’s supposed to be good, though he’s clearly uncertain.
The priest tells him to do whatever brings him deeper into his life. He then adds, “not the life you think you could have, the life you’re in right now” or something very similar to that. I’m seeing more of the latter. And I see alot of the hopping around I’ve done up til now as more of the former.
But, no, not anticipating any big changes just engaging more in the things I consider to be personally important.
Things have been feeling very blase to me lately. Many times in my life, the ones I’ve enjoyed most, have been experientially rich, vivid, and complex. Time is flying in CA, but like flying in a jet, the scenery has quickly become monotonous.
Totally true. CA was not as life-bending and richly experiential* as CMU was. But the fast-paced timeless monotony isn’t near as bad as the fear you can get sometimes just through being in the real-world at the peak of the economic downturn in the second most expensive city in the US. And its been enjoyable overall.
*is that a word?