For those who worry (or get exhasperated), I’d like to say that often I put the negative foo of my life here to work it out and examine it. This does not mean that because I put 5 icky entries in a row that’s all there is to my life. It serves a constructive purpose.
I feel under-engaged. I’m getting the creeping feeling of meaninglessness wrt work. Still performing, bills will be paid for awhile. Also grad school application due on monday, so it won’t be happening this year. Still single. No romantic prospects.
Though, on the subject of meaningful (if not highly lucrative) work, Americorps is hiring. Hm…..
I worry about you, steve.
Your dissillusionment with the software industry, and your futile search for meaning in life are unique ailments, which will eventually destroy you.
You’ll never land on your feet. Being a smart but aimless guy gets you nowhere.
Also, this site (http://www.tolerance.org/hidden_bias/02.html) tells me I have a hidden bias against gay people. I guess this means I have to hate you now.
I have all the hidden biases.
Some I’ll buy, some I don’t. Primarily, I think I’m really bad at this sort of thing, and have trouble shifting my grouping model once set.
I’m certainly biased against their testing method, since it’s rather annoying.
i agree. the testing method is beyond annoying. i have:
“Slight automatic preference for Gay people”
DUH … wait … only slight? i would have expected more of preference than that.
“Little to no automatic racial association with weapons or harmless objects”
GOOD
“Slight automatic association between male and science”
i found this test to be the most annoying. i got everything wrong, all the time. i don’t think there was a set i got even half correct until the end when i just slowed down a lot. then they made me take it like five times. this result i just don’t buy. in my year, where i went to undergrad, there were 11 female chemistry majors and 1 male chemistry major. in my general chemistry class: 6 men and over 70 women. in organic chemistry: 3 men and over 40 women. in one of the labs i taught: NO MEN. of the guys i knew in chemistry at my undergrad, exactly 50% were gay. my career in science: 3 female bosses and 2 male (both of the men were within the last 5 months). if anything, i am more likely to view science as a really female field. so yeah, they almost had me believing their test thing was alright, then i took this one and the test was way too hard and returned a result i know to be the exact opposite of my bias.
“Your data suggest a moderate automatic association between female and science”
Ha ha. I win. From what I remember of my association with (pure) science majors at CMU, there was a large percentage of females. For me, I think I associate “lab skills” (e.g., pouring and mixing solutions, precise measurements) with female. Either that, or the image of a hot girl in safety glasses and a lab coat holding a beaker of acid turns me on.
Also, I apparently have a moderate association between white people and weapons.
Granted, they mostly showed stuff like “hand grenade” “fancy sword” “cannon” and I’ve seen toy hand grenades, fancy swords and little model cannon in the homes/offices of multiple white people.
I wonder if the results would’ve been different had they shown different weapons.
Also, little or no association between gender and “science vs. liberal arts”
I think I’m just getting better at taking these tests and coming out as “unbiased”