I want to do a good job on this paper for last semester. I suspect if I turn in what I have I’ll get at least a C. More than good enough to pass. But my current paper sucks. It’s poorly researched, the thesis is uninspired. It’s fairly well written. But I dislike turning in crap. I feel like I could take this paper somewhere and learn from it. Or I could turn it in as written (on my second deadline) and pass, and graduate. Lovely. Education v Grading, as
And some guy I’ve never met on a hookup site corrected me when I said I was a slacker, saying I’m just overcommitted. Not unlike the comment I received from my politics and public affairs professor, who was passive-aggressively criticizing me by saying it’s a great tragedy when really bright people overcommit. How the fuck would she know whether or not I’m brilliant? I don’t talk much in class, and I got a 33/77 on her midterm (which was a C, btw, a 73% was apparently an A). Ugh.
And also WAA’s comment about people with great oars who don’t row well at all v people with paper cups who use that more effectively.
In case it’s unclear, I’m partially frustrated with myself, partially frustrated with the expectations people have of me.
Does it really matter what other people think? You’re you. No more…no less.
And that’s a good thing.
*Hugs*
you need to chill the fuck out and go do a DDR like game.
I agree about the education v grading. There is something to be said for combining them together, but today’s educators don’t seem to be doing that as well – either that or students just don’t want to learn.
About our conversation earlier, check out Driven To Distraction. I found out that I really wasn’t to blame… I know it opened my eyes.
I actually bought Driven to Distraction, as well as the sequel (Answers to Distraction?) a couple years ago. But I haven’t made it very far in either of them.
LOL… how ironic?
I’d say more “appropriate” rather than “ironic”. “Fitting”, maybe. =)
Well, ironic because it’s a book about being distracted. I like that the first few sentences in the book say, you don’t have to read this straight through.
You’re Stephen. Being pleased with yourself comes ahead of what professors or other people think of you. There is the possibility of turning the paper as is and then going on and doing what you’d like to do with it. There’s less motivation, but the motivation is all internal, and you’re not responsible to anyone but yourself if you do it that way.
And any decently perceptive prof can tell when a student is brilliant, even if they’re not performing at their capability in the class. It shows in a whole lot of ways.
I think you generally should worry about your own expectations for yourself and ignore those of others.