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Oh. My. God.

I must thank my lucky stars that I don’t have hardware adequate to the task of playing this game. I would never get anything done. At least not for a week or two =)

So, I dropped the chin fuzz off the lower lip, and am experimenting with a jaw line beard. I’d probably help if I could shave symmetrically. Oh well =)

Pictures posted later, for you to oo & ah over (or um and er, or ik and ew, if you prefer =)

I decided this was an obnoxiously long comment, so I turned it into a post of my own. shoebox_bird posted the entry that got me thinking on this topic: Can women and men be just friends and what happens to friendship with men for women if/when they get married.

bask in my sage wisdom, or something

I had a dream this morning. The first part of it was my standard ‘you are not included’ nightmare. But I remember at the end it had morphed into something else. And the phrase “Boredom is the frustrated desire to be doing something [often something particular]” flowed along. I thought this was such a tremendously meaningful statement that I woke up so I could remember it. In the light of consciousness, it doesn’t seem quite as profound, though still worthy of note.

Most particularly, boredom, like anger, seems to naturally result in a vicious cycle, though with boredom, the commonplace complement is passivity. Instead of rooting out the cause of the boredom, what it is we want to be doing, we are likely to turn to our automatic medium of choice (in my case, the tall & wide Ikea Billy full of sci-fi _right_ next to my bed and the net.). TV is popular, but I’m down on that, so whatever. The point of it is that, like eating, these are reactions that don’t really address the underlying cause. Figure out what you want to do and do it. Or try something, and see if that does it. Waiting is a poor response to boredom in most circumstances.

Spinning the wheel of blame, I come up with the educational system. Wait in line, wait til you’re called on, answer these standarized questions, read these standardized stories, fit yourself into this shape distinctly not based on you or your interests, who gives a fuck what you want? An environment based on the imperative voice. Doesn’t exactly encourage any search for introspective awareness of one’s own desires. Especially inappropriate for someone, like me, who has a more interrogative bent.

I’ll make my 4th post today and announce that my parents are taking me out to dinner. Yay =)

I worked out for the first time since may (as in grunty-lifty followed by aerobics), and I’m feeling sooo much better now. On monday morning, after several foodless hours on a train I weighed 150. Today, after a huge italian meal last night, and an indian buffet for lunch, I weigh 147. Strange, but I won’t sweat it. =)

Calm, flowing, not at odds with the universe. Must go grunty-lifty more often, while I still can.

I’m gonna go move heavy objects in repetitive cycles, then get sweaty, then have a cold shower. (if the gym isn’t closed. Haven’t gone since the beginning of spanish 1. I am long overdue =)

Flight: Vanguard Airlines flight 777 (Non-Stop) Flight Details
Depart: Pittsburgh, PA (PIT) Wed, 31 Jul at 7:00pm
Arrive: Kansas City, MO (MCI) Wed, 31 Jul at 8:15pm
Seat: Check in at Airport for Seat Assignment. (McDonnell Douglas MD80 Jet)

Flight: Vanguard Airlines flight 709 (Non-Stop) Flight Details
Depart: Kansas City, MO (MCI) Wed, 31 Jul at 9:35pm
Arrive: San Francisco, CA (SFO) Wed, 31 Jul at 11:25pm
Seat: Check in at Airport for Seat Assignment. (McDonnell Douglas MD80 Jet)

Dear Jerks online,

If you don’t want to meet me, don’t say you do. If you say you do want to meet me, take less than 15 minutes pulling out your schedule to suggest a day/time that you might be free after telling me you can’t make my first proposal. And in conclusion, bite me.

Hugs & Kisses

-scu

So, one of the pretty guys from san fran is an actuary. Making beaucoup dollars to do something that I figure I could probably do fairly easily and make alot of money. And if it’s anything like the entry tests, I think I could enjoy it quite a bit. Plus, the guy said it’s a fairly social job.

So, as I see it, there are only a couple problems with this plan. One, it doesn’t really advance the causes I believe in outside my own wallet. Two, it would be work for the benefit of the insurance industry, which pretty much rapes most consumers. Bleh.