A budgetary analysis of moving costs.

Moving van: about $1660 in rental fees alone (for the minimum size truck, not including gas, hotels, food, pain and suffering, etc). Even split 3 ways, that’s $553. Fees increase by a relatively modest $200ish dollars up to 17′. And there is a large price gap between that and 24′.

About 2000 miles according to mapquest, assuming 10 miles per gallon, that’s 200 gallons, or about $400 in gas. lodging probably adds an additional $40/night for a room Assuming 65 mph on average and 12 hours/day driving, that’s 780 miles/day, and thus three days, so two nights. Add $80. Food costs might increase, but I’ll be eating no matter where I am, and so I’ll assume that any increase is comparatively negligible.

so, adding it all up, I’m looking at roughly $763 minimum as my personal portion of a threeway split of a rental plan.

Flying would run me $85, if I left the first weekend in June. (bless you Sun Country Airlines, though it’s unavoidably a redeye — Curse you, Sun Country Airlines). Given 7 boxes of books at media rate, (filing box size, something like 15x13x12) at about 50 lbs, that’s about $16/box * n boxes, where n is in the 5-7 range (I’m paring down my collections. Quite a bit). That makes $80-$112. Plus two big boxes full of clothing & stuff, which should run about $100 bucks each. Max total: $397.

Price difference: $366. I think for that quantity, I can find satisfactory replacements for my unimpressive bed, desk, chair, and shelves. In addition to being able to sell the aforementioned items. And I save myself the misery of a cross country drive in a uhaul. (though I do miss the joy of seeing lots of places I’ve never been. Win some, lose some.)

final report and L.A.

So, as it turns out, the project which was stopped in mid-march, they attempted to restart in mid-april. We declined further work, and wrote an abbreviated report of the efforts to date gratis, as a company (Ro is still paying me for it, thankfully). That is what has been eating my soul. Only not. It’s kind of fun. And my writing problems have indeed greatly diminished.

I have alot of mixed feelings on this. I like Ro, and I like working with him, and I’m sad to see that coming to an end. This has been my longest lasting job to date. It was good to feel smart again for a time. Not so much to feel smart, but to have my brain actively engaged in an inherently challenging, and rather valuable, activity. It’s a shame that the results of my work will likely be lost in a dark, dusty, dungeon somewhere, but at least it is unlikely that I will suffer pangs of conscience when I hear about the actions of drones.

I should be staying with while down in LA, which will be fun. Haven’t seen Ken since October. And I anticipate that his collection of gaming systems may give a run for his money, but we shall see. =)

Identity questions

Inspired by a friends-only post made by a friend. You know who you are.

As a kid I didn’t have much choice about fitting in. I was damn smart, and compulsively honest. I ‘learned’, accurately or no, that it didn’t matter what I did, I was still a nerd, and thus the lowest of the low, so I might as well do whatever I wanted to do anyway (mostly, I made a number of exceptions, which should surprise no one =).

I read books at recess that most kids would never pick up, mythology, fairy tales, choose your own adventures, mostly. They didn’t want me on their team? Fuck sports anyway, waste of a life. (They seemed content to agree with me that swim team didn’t count. Neither did acrosport dance, all year or two of it that I did ;).

It got kind of extreme in high school, where I started wearing a cloak and carrying all my books around with me everywhere (I made no use of my locker, I’m surprised it didn’t seriously damage my back).

My last year of high school, I started defusing my angry (hurt) outsider mess. And college pretty much completely reoriented me, but even now, I have trouble taking seriously how what I do, say, like, etc comes across to others. It seems like a pretty minor question. How I see myself as a result of these things is pretty major though.

For instance, I don’t think I’ve ever left a book behind when I moved. At least, not since leaving for college. It’s part of seeing myself as smart, and relying on that as a cornerstone of my identity. As an illustration, I’ve kept a duplicate copy of a book I’ve had for over a decade and not read so much as a word of in that span. I’m slimming it down for my impending move. No more than 5 standard boxes of books. =) (I think I had 15 or more in my last move).

I haven’t much worried about my social standing within the gay community. I’ve assumed it’s shit and that nothing I do will change it. It’s sort of liberating in a way. I’ve come to realize it’s also ridiculously inaccurate, but I think I may value the freedom it confers over the warm fuzzy of realizing that I’m not the lowest rung on the ladder.

Of course, this brings up the question of how I feel about self-delusion, and whether I value having an accurate picture of myself and reality over my easy freedom by concession from status games.

Maybe letting myself care what others think just opens me up to too much hurt.

Hrm. …

Oh, btw, hi, I’m back on the lj habit 😉

Flight plans

Thu, Apr 8-Fri, Apr 9: ATA AIRLINES, TZ 0626
From: SAN FRANCISCO, CA (SFO) map Departs: 11:40pm
To: CHICAGO MIDWAY, IL (MDW) map Arrives: 5:32am
Flight Time: 3 hours and 52 minutes

Fri, Apr 9: ATA AIRLINES, TZ 0261
From: CHICAGO MIDWAY, IL (MDW) map Departs: 8:10am
To: MINNEAPOLIS ST PL, MN (MSP) map Arrives: 9:44am
Flight Time: 1 hours and 34 minutes


Mon, Apr 12: ATA AIRLINES, TZ 0664
From: MINNEAPOLIS ST PL, MN (MSP) map Departs: 2:50pm
To: CHICAGO MIDWAY, IL (MDW) map Arrives: 4:20pm
Flight Time: 1 hours and 30 minutes

Mon, Apr 12: ATA AIRLINES, TZ 0237
From: CHICAGO MIDWAY, IL (MDW) map Departs: 5:45pm
To: SAN FRANCISCO, CA (SFO) map Arrives: 8:25pm
Flight Time: 4 hours and 40 minutes