Author: cheerfulchaotic

I can go back a week in livejournal in about 200 posts. So it goes. =)

So, I had this dream where I was in my agency’s headquarters (though the building didn’t really resemble it that much) when a super-powered psychopath went on a rampage.  There was crawling around in ductwork, scared survivors, corpses littering the building [no one I recognized], broken and flickering lights, a no-escape trap, a glass and steel cage built around the building and more.  I was apparently the only other one to develop super powers, though several steps behind the psycho.  I confronted him once, ran away, came back after realizing I was trapped and confronted him again in front of an array of backup clones he’d made of himself.  Then I woke up.  

I think the real kicker on this dream would have been a fight-club-esque ending.  It almost seems like it could be made into a video game.  If not for it sounding incredibly derivative of bioshock mixed with heroes.  

You know, facebook loads much faster on my mobile device and the ease of posting short little blurbs leaves me less inclined to post treatises. Maybe there’s an android app for lj. Also an rss reader that works well with lj.

The combination of overindulging in Indian food and an hour and a half run actually didn’t go too badly. Other than failing at everything else I wanted to do last night, that is. I’m sorta amused at a sweaty, shirtless scu running down the main commercial strip of georgetown and the gay bar lineup in dupont circle. Somewhat incongruous.

Travel plans:

• This weekend, I’ll be spending all day saturday and sunday morning in zanesville.
• Next week I’ll be working in DC thursday and friday (maybe staying over part of saturday.)
• final weekend of june I’ll be in columbus for origins
• the following tuesday I have training in dc.
• for an as yet indeterminate, maybe two weekish, span in late july, I’ll be out in SF. Work and play will both take place. Vacation days will likely be used for some of it.

Parties interested in seeing me whilst I’m in your town are encouraged to indicate as much so that plans or plans to make plans can be made.

I love transcendence stories.

The gospels of the new testament are a classic example. The movie powder would be another. Stranger in a strange land another.

The basic elements are a naive/pure outsider with an important life-and-paradigm changing message. Some hear and follow, including some wise and jaded, others do not.

But the ending is always the same. Death, dispersal, ascension, whatever. Removal from the material world made physical. Maybe it’s commentary on the impermanence of transcendence. Maybe it’s expressing a fundamental truth that it is to be valued and perhaps even cultivated, but that it does not sustain life.

I’ll say this for bujold in her chalion series. She shows people changed but still there after transcendence. Yay for partial transcendence, I suppose. Even if it is impermanent.

I went to the green festival for the first time this weekend. I’m of two minds about the event. On the one hand, I think it’s great to see popular interest in environmental issues. On the other hand, the snake oil salespeople (many of whom doubtless believe in their products), purveyors of misleading psuedoscience, and overall lack of a broader framework or perspective for thinking about such important issues distresses me.

It was approximately what I expected.

Talking with Doug, who lacks a livejournal to the best of my knowledge, I described my emotional state as a trifecta of angst over a possibility I intend to pursue, ennui over a possibility which I tried for and I’m expecting to hear a negative back from, and frustration over the possibility I’ve made into a reality over the past 3 years. All related to work.

Years ago a friend of mine told me he didn’t think he was as intelligent as me, and he was glad he wasn’t. I was surprised this particular friend thought himself less intelligent, and surprised that he would be grateful for it. He pointed out my frequent dissatisfaction and said another really intelligent friend had the same problem.

I think the fundamental problem is that I have a very active imagination, and there are so many things I want to be doing, but there’s only so much time and only so much me to go around. A smarter person would be better at prioritizing. =)

Well, it seems my roommates will all 3 be departing our current home in a few short months. My two now-former pilot roomies (aka, the ones I’d sooner keep) are moving to baltimore at the end of June. I won’t be following.

The one who has been living in the same spot for 7 years is apparently [likely] moving out a month or two later.

If I liked my place more, I might try to repopulate it. But it is a bit out of the way, and a bit small for my needs.

So what to do next?

This seems like a reasonable time to look into my interest in intentional communities (stay over a night or two at a few of them, maybe).

I might check out one bedrooms, but that’s really not my style. I have a few months. We shall see.