I’m have two supernatural figures sitting on my shoulders. Both whispering advice into my brain. Sadly, they’re both demons.<\/p>\n
One is saying “You have to get this paper done, and done right, you’re running out of time. It’s so important to your future. You need this professor’s recommendation to advance toward your goals. You know this is important.” These are the words of Anxiety.<\/p>\n
The other whispers “Forget about it. This is a giant source of unneccessary stress in your life. There is no way you can get anything worth doing out in the time you have. Give it up. You’re not even sure you want to go where this is taking you. It doesn’t matter. It’s not important.” These are the words of Depression. <\/p>\n
The unfortunate fact is, in the time I have, I can’t produce quality work, and I don’t have the motivation to do so. I respect my instructor immensely. I feel like turning in schlock is showing her disrespect. I feel like giving up is an even greater disrespect. I have learned alot from this course, but I have burned myself out in the process.<\/p>\n
Throw on top of this a demanding job, and a volunteer effort that has eaten up many an hour for the aclu, and the fact that I’ve spent 3 out of the past 4 weekends in other towns, and I plan on not being in town this upcoming weekend. And the weekend after that, one of my closest friends in town is leaving town. I haven’t really worked out since right before leaving for dc.<\/p>\n
I am tired. No, strike that, I am weary. And now I’m biking home. I’ll talk with my professor tomorrow, which will be something of a first for me, admitting failure to an instructor.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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