Taking six years to graduate, while taking classes at an achingly slow pace, and doing progressively worse in them, made me wonder. Bouncing over the U.S. with no apparent rhyme or reason, trying out jobs the way some people try out brands of deodorant, and piling up mounds of credit card debt, also had me suspecting there’s something wrong with me. What’s “wrong” with me is that I’m still building my sense of self. I got a late start, and while there’s some suckage involved, that just part of the game. And I intend to walk away with a sense of the rules, as winning is irrelevant. =)<\/p>\n
I came to the realization that my notion of “experimenting with commitment” was rather naive. I’ve found that a good<\/i> commitment is an expression of something that is clearly known. While an experiment is all about getting to know something better. They’re fundamentally different modes. Commitment will come if and when I’m ready for it. <\/p>\n
Assuming that I’m not to blame for anything in particular that could possibly be my fault is mindset I might wish to cultivate.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Taking six years to graduate, while taking classes at an achingly slow pace, and doing progressively worse in them, made me wonder. Bouncing over the U.S. with no apparent rhyme or reason, trying out jobs the way some people try out brands of deodorant, and piling up mounds of credit card debt, also had me … Continue reading “I’m not stupid”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-598","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/598","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=598"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/598\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=598"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=598"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=598"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}