What I am about to say should not be taken as criticism by any of the excellent hosts who have had me over, all of whom have lj’s, only one of whose journals I never read (don’t know her id), and, I suspect only one of whom never reads my journal. That having been said, I really haven’t enjoyed myself at the past 4 parties to which I’ve been. Drinking, food I would never eat in any other context, making out (at all but one party), nudity (only at two parties), and other recreation substances (only at one party). Each of these left me feeling a little more sad and out of place, and less wanting to be there. Potluck vegetarian dinner parties and gaming parties are way more my speed. So, I spent much time thinking about it all.<\/p>\n
I’m used to attributing my lack of enjoyment of parties to a lack of social skills, and I often feel that I’m not interacting well with others. Shannon, a registered extrovert, pretty much shot down my claims of social awkwardness. Forced to drop the answer I came up with at age 12 and actually think, I came to the conclusion that it’s because I am not interested by topics that they care about and vice-versa. Introversion is something else, a preference for navel gazing over communication. Dealing in the interior world, rather than the exterior one. Shyness is also a separate issue to my mind. That’s just insecurity\/embarrasment based social hesitation. A high entry cost for interaction, as it were. <\/p>\n
I am not especially shy. Nor do I consider myself terribly socially inept these days. I was definitely both in my first year or two at cmu. I hadn’t had much opportunity to interact with peers in a healthy fashion prior to that, so I had alot of catching up to do. But I threw myself into it, to the point where I got my first D since music class in 8th grade. I am somewhat introverted, but I do not think I’m am all that unusually so. I am often sad at the apparent lack of people I share interests with. This is probably why Josh returning to omnivorism left me with a small nameless ennui. It was a loss of common experience with someone close to me. <\/p>\n
I am left with the thought that What I am about to say should not be taken as criticism by any of the excellent hosts who have had me over, all of whom have lj’s, only one of whose journals I never read (don’t know her id), and, I suspect only one of whom never reads my journal. That having been said, … Continue reading “shyness, introversion and social ineptitude”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-556","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/556","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=556"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/556\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=556"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=556"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=556"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}