So, Steve is cool. And attractive, and fun to talk to. 2nd date started off somewhat awkward and off balance, but corrected pretty smoothly. But now I’m experiencing an emotional reaction very similar to the one I had when Josh asked me, lo those many moons ago, “so, are we boyfriends?”, which is to say “I really don’t want to lose this guy, but I really don’t feel ready to commit”. I am pretty lonely and work unfulfilled, but let’s stick to the lonely for a minute. <\/p>\n
I work all day with Ro, and only Ro. Our schedules don’t always overlap much. I’m not the sort to casually strike up conversation at the gym. At the clinic, there are some good guys, but when I’m medicing, I’m spending most of my time talking to people that I am not to approach in a nonclinical setting. (It’s come up with a few guys already). At home, well, simon’s back (yay), but he has a life that occupies more time with class & work than mine does. Tom works obscene hours in mountainview, and shannon likewise has a life. <\/p>\n
Dating is not the ideal solution. For me, small groups (3-7) is optimal. Dates come in a fixed size of 2. Steve is also way the hell far away. <\/p>\n
But the real problem here is that I’m thinking of person-I-will-be-dating as the solution for all the social activity I’m missing. If I take that burden of expectation away, Steve seems like someone well worth dating. But that means I’m going to have to try something else for the social angle. Hmmmm.<\/p>\n
points to ponder.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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