There are different ways of living ones life with respect to time. There’s a bit of the jist of what I’m talking about in Please Understand Me II (more Myers-Briggs-ian foo). It talks about the time perspective of artisans (xSxP’s), guardians (xSxJ’s), idealists (xNFx’s), and rationalists (xNTx’s). specifically, artisans are about the here and now, living in the moment. Guardians do alot of living in the past (reminiscing, investigating, learning history, whatever). Idealists spend their time dreaming about the future, and Rationalists, tend to regard time in terms of spans, from x to y, A happens\/ed, while I do\/did B.<\/p>\n
I can see that. I’m big into looking ahead at my future. Don’t tend to dwell too much on the past I think. Well, except as it relates to the future. The moment isn’t all that signficant either. It’s so incredibly fleeting. Chunking time up is a tool I’m good at using, but whatever. I do all of them, of course (who doesn’t do at least a little of some of it), but the balance is definitely towards looking at the future. What gets me down is that I have ideas for what I want the future to be, but am not sure how to bridge it to the present. Probably in part because I’m not connected enough in the hear and now, but this is starting to sound like bad fantasy pulp magic rationalization, so I think I’ll stop that point.<\/p>\n
Still, relationships and sex. I treat sex very much as a now thing. I don’t so much plan ahead. I don’t tend to reflect alot on it after it’s over. I enjoy it in the moment, and feel emptied afterwards. I want someone to have the sort of intense, rapport-riffic give and take I associate with the best moments of my relationships, romantic and otherwise. But like it or lump it, sex does connect me intimately and emotionally, if not always especially deeply or in an especially good way to someone else.<\/p>\n
A further question is “Why bother if it isn’t going to go anywhere?” I can understand the emotions and thinking behind that, and it shouldn’t be discarded out of hand, tempted though I am to just gloss over it.<\/p>\n
One of the things I really enjoy about my time with the chicago gay men’s chorus was the profound feeling of collaboration, connection, involvement, engagement, whatever, when we were singing. There’s nothing quite like 150 voices raised in harmony.<\/p>\n
And in closing, on yet another unconnected point, I will stay up all night playing video games, my eyes will water during les miz, and nausicaa, and I will enjoy the burn at the gym, I will delight in clever word play and finding solutions to tricky math, I will enjoy cruising guys, and watching kids learn, I will fondly reminisce over ficticious events, become impassioned over things that have not yet happened, and take my breakthroughs as they come to me. I see some conflicts therein, but no contradictions. And if you are not terribly fond of that, well, get used to it, or best of luck with someone else.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
There are different ways of living ones life with respect to time. There’s a bit of the jist of what I’m talking about in Please Understand Me II (more Myers-Briggs-ian foo). It talks about the time perspective of artisans (xSxP’s), guardians (xSxJ’s), idealists (xNFx’s), and rationalists (xNTx’s). specifically, artisans are about the here and now, … Continue reading “understanding the self”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-466","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/466","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=466"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/466\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=466"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=466"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=466"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}