{"id":326,"date":"2002-11-18T04:00:00","date_gmt":"2002-11-18T10:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=326"},"modified":"2002-11-18T04:00:00","modified_gmt":"2002-11-18T10:00:00","slug":"sex-love-update","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=326","title":{"rendered":"Sex & love update"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have hopeless crushes on a few medics. (No names or identifying features will be included.) This is probably because they constitute most of my gay social contact these days (with the possible exceptions of , , and ). Medics and trainees aren’t supposed to be getting it on, which is totally fine by me. The idea of sex frankly leaves me feeling a little bleh right now (maybe it’s something about working at an std clinic). And I totally feel like everyone I’m attracted to isn’t attracted to me (which always brings up the chicken and egg question). Or that the rapport thing just isn’t\/doesn’t\/wouldn’t happen. <\/p>\n

Echoing ‘s earlier sentiment, I said that I could get off any time I really want to, but the holding myself in my own arms while I sleep just doesn’t work. Chris (I think, it might have been Daniel) thought that was pretty poetic. They be good people. <\/p>\n

So, what I’m wanting these days involves rapport (which involves putting myself out there in a pretty major way), lots of physical affection, and sex being postponed. <\/p>\n

Celibate over a month. And not all about changing that. So it goes. <\/p>\n

Maintaining my swearing off of gay.com. And net cruising in general. Did recently put an ad out on planetout, so, maybe I’m not doing all that good, but I haven’t done anything about it, and I’ve recieved few replies, none appealing. <\/p>\n

So where do I meet guys who think enough like me to provide much bandwidth, yet differently enough to keep it really interesting, look pretty, and are willing to wait? Oh yeah, I’d like an order of fries with malt vinegar, and no salt to go, in a purple bag. And a pony. BLEH!<\/p>\n

More to the point, why do I meticulously avoid the things i want most? Why do I assume that people I like will have problems with touch until informed otherwise? <\/p>\n

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I have hopeless crushes on a few medics. (No names or identifying features will be included.) This is probably because they constitute most of my gay social contact these days (with the possible exceptions of , , and ). Medics and trainees aren’t supposed to be getting it on, which is totally fine by me. … Continue reading “Sex & love update”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-326","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/326","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=326"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/326\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=326"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=326"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=326"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}