{"id":236,"date":"2002-08-17T03:57:00","date_gmt":"2002-08-17T08:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=236"},"modified":"2002-08-17T03:57:00","modified_gmt":"2002-08-17T08:57:00","slug":"bodies-and-insecurity-oh-yeah-and-yoga","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=236","title":{"rendered":"Bodies and insecurity, oh yeah and yoga."},"content":{"rendered":"

Oh yeah, and seeing guys with userpics like and not good for my body image. Like, at all. So very, very pretty. Even after the 8 years on the swim team, 2 hour practices, 5 days a week, summer and winter, I didn’t have a six pack. We won’t discuss how often I gorged myself at the Wendy’s & Rax all-you-can-eat thingies of the era. I was also only like 5 pounds heavier than I am now. No, I didn’t lift, or do situps, or pushups, or any of that.<\/p>\n

I don’t think I want my body renovated in a major way. Less than 10 pounds more muscle for the upper body. Less than 5 pounds less fat (and that I’m actually iffy on. My bf% was on the high end of healthy the last time I remember getting it checked). <\/p>\n

Not that my craving a six pack has anything to do with functionality. <\/p>\n

I am so tremendously fucking uncentered these days. I think it’s time I actually _used_ that yoga mat. I wonder if my yoga manual in the stuff Jane shipped to me. I know the routine pretty well, but it’s still nice to have the book there since it’s been forever and a day since I’ve actually yoga’ed.<\/p>\n

I should make a commitment to do that like 3 times a week, for as long as it takes to do it right. (2-3 hours, historically speaking). I’ve never had that level of commitment to it, but if I want to cultivate my inner peace I could do much worse.<\/p>\n

I think I’m all about deciding what I want to be when I grow up at this point. I think that inner peace is the first and most important change necessary. But I don’t want to lose my quirky, chaotic charm. Hmmmm, peaceful chaos. A point to ponder. Bed time for me. (after I finish commenting on other journals \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Oh yeah, and seeing guys with userpics like and not good for my body image. Like, at all. So very, very pretty. Even after the 8 years on the swim team, 2 hour practices, 5 days a week, summer and winter, I didn’t have a six pack. We won’t discuss how often I gorged myself … Continue reading “Bodies and insecurity, oh yeah and yoga.”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-236","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/236","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=236"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/236\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=236"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=236"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=236"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}