{"id":172,"date":"2002-07-02T12:56:00","date_gmt":"2002-07-02T17:56:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=172"},"modified":"2002-07-02T12:56:00","modified_gmt":"2002-07-02T17:56:00","slug":"first-shot-at-fiction","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=172","title":{"rendered":"first shot at fiction"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Okay, so I&#8217;m pretty insecure about this whole writing fiction thing.  And this snippet is essentially pure dialogue.  It&#8217;s also like the first thing I&#8217;ve ever done, so be gentle, I&#8217;m aware that it sucks.  Baby steps, it&#8217;s all about baby steps.  If there&#8217;s anything you liked about it, or if you have <i>constructive<\/i> criticism, I&#8217;d love to hear it.  Bleh.<\/p>\n<p><!--more here goes--><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p>&#8220;Why?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>A frown flickered across her face as she sat back in her armchair, &#8220;You must love him a great deal.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I do.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;ve sacrificed so much for him, yet you don&#8217;t resent him at all.  If he had asked you for any of it, you would have left him in the dirt.  I want to know why you didn&#8217;t.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;He never asked.  He never even knew.  Without me, he would try and fail, and keep trying.  Maybe it&#8217;s that I want to see him succeed.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Her eyes peered out over the top of her glasses, &#8220;And if he&#8217;d never succeed without you?  Is this just a game where you need him to need you?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I turned my head to the night rain sheeting against the window and just looked for a moment before answering, &#8220;It does feel like a game, like I&#8217;m pulling the strings on a puppet, making it dance.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;And where are you without your puppet?&#8221;  I winced, but she didn&#8217;t pause, &#8220;With your talents, you could go far.  What makes him so special?  Why do you need him?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;He has so much potential.  I just have to show him what he could become, guide him to where he ought to be.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Sculpting him into a shape you chose for him.  Is that what it means to love?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Her mouth shrank into a disapproving frown.  &#8220;I think you know what you need to do.&#8221;  She opened the drawer, and pulled out a pistol and a handful of bullets then handed them to me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yes, I know,&#8221; my voice quiet and resigned as I loaded the gun, &#8220;Thank you, mother.&#8221;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Okay, so I&#8217;m pretty insecure about this whole writing fiction thing. And this snippet is essentially pure dialogue. It&#8217;s also like the first thing I&#8217;ve ever done, so be gentle, I&#8217;m aware that it sucks. Baby steps, it&#8217;s all about baby steps. If there&#8217;s anything you liked about it, or if you have constructive criticism, &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/?p=172\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;first shot at fiction&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-172","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/172","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=172"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/172\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=172"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=172"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=172"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}