So, a few years ago, I met a guy online. Kinda cute, though not in your typical sort of way. Totally fell for him. Then he went back to his ex wife, with whom he had had a kid. Fast forward a couple of years. I leave pittsburgh, and come back to find that he’s still interested in guys (surprise, surprise), has had a serious boyfriend, and is now hung up on him, as well as his ex wife. <\/p>\n
And he runs completely hot & cold on me. Occassional, very very hot running, with lengthy disappearances. Very very confusing. <\/p>\n
Run across him online again. Made plans to see him next week. My brain is telling me that I’m cruising for an emotional bruising, but I find this guy so physically and emotionally appealing it’s kinda scary. <\/p>\n
There’s something deeply ironic in pacifistic, non-conformist, anti-establishment me falling for a cop. <\/p>\n
But, still, after talking with him, and expressing, more clearly than I ever have before, my attraction to him, and having a reciprocation of that, I feel that it’s all okay. (Nevermind that anything between us has a guaranteed, very small, maximum duration built in, he’s emotionally tied to pittsburgh, and I’m bound by wanderlust)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" So, a few years ago, I met a guy online. Kinda cute, though not in your typical sort of way. Totally fell for him. Then he went back to his ex wife, with whom he had had a kid. Fast forward a couple of years. I leave pittsburgh, and come back to find that he’s … Continue reading “A good way to feel”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-164","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/164","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=164"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/164\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=164"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=164"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cheerfulchaotic.crazycrew.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=164"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}